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Commentary Barbera is such a good hearted, well meaning spirit: allowing her prey a last draw of deadly cigarette smoke of death in the middle of getting strangled.
All jokes asides, Barbera really sees this as kindness and these are - scratch that - were! Schroedinger s cigarettes after all.

That reminds me. I did not really smoke but tried to for some time. it was more part of a ritual if i needed to get out, into the dark, dark ... manicured garden plots all round my boarding school and had a well hidden cigarette. It took me over a year to finish a pack and yes i kept smoking the same pack and it was disgusting. I also got a cigarette holder (black) and the cigarettes I bought were davidoff cigarettes for the sole reason that their package was black and red at the time and matched my visual taste. and their cigarettes were an elegant white.
So. Schroedinger also smokes Davidoff cigarettes, because they re pure white and the only brand i sort of know.
But while I felt special doing this, I kept it a secret. This was a very soft way of self destruction and I used to adore everything in connection with self destruction, but luckily I was way too intimidated and scared to do really bad things. Well. Most of really bad things. Nothing that gave me long time regret.