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Commentary While preparing this page for uplaod i realized that it really, really missed another establishing shot - showing, where the statue is, where jaune is and that the trapdoor down creaks open, with Jey s stepdaughter entering... so that there are actually 3 jaune-ish people in the room now. one in stone. and that stone... i kinda... should have studied how to render a statue in black and white ink, because the contrasts are too high and there are too many contour lines to make this stone. its fine. everything is fine. why is the world burning. or rather coughing. the last weeks my anxiety disorder came back in full swing, but i am battling it back. I am absolutely, one hundert percent sure it reigns its ugly head because of the pandemic and the stress - so there is an end in sight. it came when the bad news about one of the vaccines surfaced. i am not in a position to rationally comprehend the statistics. blood clots in the brain sound scary. intubation sounds scary. i rationally know that not being vaccinated is way more dangerous than being vaccinated. If there were no other vaccinations i would take the bloody clotty one. its a different feeling though to hope not to catch the rona and try everything not to and to willingly inject something. I am absolutely for vaccinations. no doubts. But when i had kiddo, i had doubts and that surprised me so so much. I KNOW that the preventable deseases are so much worse than side effects of the vaccinations - but still, i made the choice for another life. a choice that resulted in pretty much guaranteed high fever and discomfort -which is much less than what the actual diseases do. still. it was my action that definitely gave my kid these things to deal with. i was never remotely deterred, but i was surprised that i did have uneasy feelings.
itll be some month before i am up for vaccination. until then its burrowing time. which is fine for me. not so much for kiddo, who lived one fifths of their life in lockdown now.
WELL. back to twisted. Who of them would take the vaccine?
If i think about it - all, if it came from a source they trusted. If L did the vaccination. B is scarred from medical torture. G is all for science, but has that thing with syringes... Jaune was vaccinated when she was in the system. And L? Mhhh. yeah. shes vaccinated. the good old eastern bloc approach for her.